Monday, 07 February 2005
Patay
Pakiramdam ko wala na kong hininga
Pakiramdam ko hindi na gumagalaw ang katawan ko
Pakiramdam ko wala nang ibang tao kasama ko
Pakiramdam ko hindi na mumulat ang akin mga mata
Pakiramdam ko patay na ako simula sa araw na ito!
Patay
Pakiramdam k
Saturday, 06 November 2004
Ang muling pagbagsak ng aking mga luha
Matagal tagal na rin simula ng huling beses akong lumuha. At ngayo'y nagbalik ito. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa kanya pa. Bakit kailangang sa isang taong lubos kong inspirasyon? Lalu pa't ngayon ay mahal ko na siya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngayong may nararamdaman ako para sa kanya tiyaka naman siya naging mailap sa akin. Isa pa napakalayo na niya ngayon. At wala nang kasiguraduhan ang muling paghaharap ng aming mga landas. Pero isa lang sa ngayon ang naiisip ko. Hindi kaya ang mga luhang ito ang kabayaran sa mga taong minsan ko ring sinaktan.
Sunday, 24 October 2004
Inspired ata ako!?
The days passed in favor to me though I got some troubles to face. Maybe because I finally got someone for real. For how many times have I searched for someone who could respect me but I always failed to find one. Till I stopped because I'm too tired hunting him down. I never thought that hes just around my YM (yahoo messenger) always gleaming at the net. Either him didn't expected to fall for me. He was a quiet type of guy, too shy to say what he really feels but once he said something, definitely it was true. I just couldn't make any doubts everytime he confess to me. I can feel his sincerity through his eyes staring straight to me. I just can't help but smile at him. And everytime he held my hand, I really feel so happy. I couldn't bear to look back at him, stare to his sparkling eyes and his dried lips. I really can't get use to do such things when I'm with him. 
This first semester, I felt so terrible that I couldn't do anything I used to do before specially writing. I just don't know why!? Actually I was terrified, I thought that I'm loosing every pieces in me. I couldn't even write anything even my deepest confessions. I should say that at that time, I was moribund. Until he came into my life. He made things go better and he helped me bring back every pieces that I was loosing. He was so wonderful, I don't know what word should I use to describe him. All I can say is that his quite different from those 10 guys I've met before. As far as I know, he could take care of me so much. And I think I'm so comfortable that I misses him so much. Those three dates we shared together it makes my affection deeper and deeper for him. By now, I could really say that I'm in love.
Saturday, 23 October 2004
Waah ang lamig lamig na, lapit na kasi ang pasko. Kahit na doble patong na ako ng kumot nilalamig pa rin ako. Nanunuot ang lamig at ayaw magpatulog. Hahayaan mo ba akong magkaganito sa buong panahon ng pasko? Hindi mo ako papabayaan di ba? Kung gusto mong makatulong......
*yakap yakap* TOTAL! pahingi nga ng isang *yakap*
gsto mo rin noh!?
Ano kayang trip ko ngayon!?
hmmm... anu nga ba!? inde ko rin alam eh.. sobrang topak tlga ako ngaun inde ko nga malaman kung bakit eh..away tuloy meron sa bahay nmin.. nakana! yun ang hinahanap ko pero ayoko silang harapin ( eh bakit ba!?) hindi ko trip eh.. isa pa baka palayasin ako, saan nman ako pupulutin noh ( e ayoko nga sa kangkungan!). ewan ko ba, maraming bagay talaga gumugulo sakin.. pero sa gitna nang lahat ng ito, maswerte pa rin ako... Lam mo bakit!? kc anjan ang mga fewnship koh ( special mention) PRO G, c PAW at ang mahal ko sa buhay (interesado kang alamin noh!?) .... sobrang swerte ko talaga dahil sa loob ng ilang mahabang panahon sa wakas nagkita na kami...wahahaha.... kaya kahit na maraming trobol bsta nanjan cla sakto na ang lahat ng bagay sa buhay ko...
Sunday, 29 August 2004
Reminice ba itu!???
As I turn back from someone that really makes me feel important & special, I feel guilty but in somehow I still feel happy. Happy because I know I ended something that won't work & won't go on, though I did't give a chance, I can predict that it will happen & I won't wait for that time because I know it will hurt him a lot. I managed to cut it off so we could learn from this & start a new life in different path but with the same knowledge of how will we stand on the next things to come. I just want to admit something, he was once a part of my life & will be a part of me forever. I just hope we'll enjoy our own paths.
Sunday, 25 July 2004
This is what I really wanted....
This is me, who never fall apart from all mess....
This is what makes me keep away from being wasted ....
This is me, who always catch the rest from the best....
Music is why I survive.....
And all I wanted is better not the most of it, not the best of it but better enough for all!!! \m/
---------------------------------------------
Dressed to Kill by New Found Glory
I know it's hard for you,
To understand what I'm going through.
But now I sit here to remind myself,
You're always dressed to kill.
And you feel like you owe it to the world.
But you owe it to yourself.
And you're, you're not here.
And I can't stop pretending,
That you're forever mine, and I.
I can't dream anymore since you left.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
I can't wake anymore, in your arms.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
Cheer up my friends all say,
You're better alone anyway.
But you're always on tour,
And you're never home.
I'm always dressed to kill.
And I feel like I owe it to the world.
But I owe it to myself.
And you're, you're not here.
And I can't stop pretending,
That you're forever mine, and I.
I can't dream anymore since you left.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
I can't wake anymore, in your arms.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
Cheer up my friends all say.
And I can't stop pretending,
That you're forever mine.
You're better alone anyway.
And you're not here, not here
I can't dream anymore, since you left.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
I can't wake anymore, in your arms.
I miss you singing me to sleep.
Cheer up my friends all say!
Monday, 19 July 2004
Can I Love you!??
When we first met, I never thought of having crush on you..... Admiring your looks & be captivated of your handsome appearance... I always thought we couldn't be close to each other or be friends....I never thought that we could talk about things I couldn't discuss to any ordinary person....But you, you just showed me how hipocrate am I, you actually broke those subjective impressions....It made me pause to a sudden thought that made me smile....
Getting closer to someone like you is really fun.... The laughter we shared while talking about crazy things & the exchange of unique stories....Well it was really shocking to discover your true color and how you showed us that you're not plastic.... You're so different, theres just something in you that few people of your kind has.... The way you deliver your thoughts and your own way of expressing yourself, it was quite shocking but it was so amazing .... I was really interested to know you more & better....
However this feelings is not right.... We're friends, you've got your gurlfriend & I know that you wouldn't think think the same way.... I know I'm too fool to think that we could be more than friends & to think that I'm going to ruin our friendship (Tropa tayo eh!!!).... But I'm trying to keep away, its the only way I see that will prevent these foolishness. Though its really hard I'm willing to suffer to save our friendship....
